hahas:) life have been okay for me.. i still croping with the work now.. amy is so stupid and careless that she keep making mistake lor.. and still really made mistake.. sigh and is better now that she got talk to other people at..

amy really got the mindset of giving up the job.. and some good fren of her keep givng her the encouragement that she can make it and just that she still need time.. but why can other just cope in less then one months and i need longer time then other.. and but it really a field that is tranning me to be bold.. and really i did i did learn alot of thing there.. just need to be more careful and check all the work that i doing now..

and guess wat they say that i will need to hit target.. but i still new no target set for me yet.. just need to learn to cope first.. *stress* hmm system is changing now.. need to punch card from now onward.. and it is more troubsome lor.. hahas;) and it will change to thrumprint system soon..

and hopefully all the changing that they wanted to make operate soon just like they wanna increase the annual leave to 10days that is 3 more days lor.. and one sat we no need to work.. hahas:) is better that working every saturday..

today is month end they all are veri busy.. and yet i still veri free.. and only do three quotation today.. one is prfect no mistake.. but one i did make mistake.. the other not yet check.. and ya i mean that tomorrow will be the last day for norman to check my work.. if i make mistake i have to settle myself.. sigh i really scared.. but thanks so supplier that they are good.. willingly to help me.. things that i dun really know i did call and check with them.. hahas:) think when fu yuan come back i got more lesser work to do ba.. cos he will be helping me.. or i will be assisting him now.. he went for resevist..

dunno lah.. life is pack not enough time i think.. and calendar is packed.. and national day got alot of activity but guess wat only can attend one... and month end also got two fren bday still thinking of how to go two and not to fly either one kite.. both also my good fren and long long missed fren.. sigh:) amy amy must have faith that you can do it! and un let other look down on you that you are stupid and useless! you can believe that amy!

my leg is still painful.. hahas;) i miss eating alot of things.. but my feeling now is to shout and cry.. amy is veri fan.. love him and yet no courage to tell him.. cos sure know tat no HOPE! and amy is like good in nothing! i really miss him.. wanna give up soon.. now listening to song.. and really hope that he beside me giving me all the courage.. or just to brighten up my day! i really veri tired day go on.. loving you is so tired and hard:(

and yet time ass really veri fast! and it thursday and tomorrow will be friday! and it meant that i growing older and older day by day lor.. sigh:) will he change the thinking.. *hoping*

one things you can be sure of i never ask for more then your love.. i be there for you when you need me! like the way just you are! you ought to know by now how much i love you! went out dinner with family today.. hahas:) happy belated birthday celebration for her!

still thinking of wat to wear.. hahas ;) i can wear jean tomorrow.. and think wearing jean with my nike tshirt ba.. love really need yong qi.. if we believe that we will be togehere and we will be togethere? really? haiyo i cannot type chinese word here lor.. wanted to blog chinese song but cannot so i change..


When will I see you again?
When will we share precious moments?
Will I have to wait forever?
Or will I have to suffer and cry the whole night through?

When will I see you again?
When will our hearts beat together?
Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning or is this the end?
When will I see you again?
(When will I see you again?)
When will I see you again?

Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning or is this the end?
When will I see you again?
(When will I see you again?)
When will I see you again?
(When will I see you again?)
When will I see you again?
(When will I see you again?)
When will I see you again?


just wanna end my blog with song lyric again.. heart pain for you! dun overwork yourself hor.. must take care wor! remember to drink more water and not coffee and other drink! and eat healthy food! if tired just go home and rest! sleep early hor:) miss you lots:) you're alway on my mind evey single day!

　
Ohuhohuh yeahay yeahay
I love you more than I can say
I love you twice as much tomorrow
Ohuhoh, Love you more than I can say

Ohuhohuh yeahay yeahay
I'll miss you every single day
Why must my life be filled with sorrow
Ohuhoh, Love you more than I can say

Oh, don't you know, I need you so
Oh, tell me please, I got to know
Do you mean to make me cry?
Am I just another guy?

Ohuhohuh yeahay yeahay
I miss you more than I can say
Why must my life be filled with sorrow
Ohuhoh, love you more than I can say

Oh, don't you know, I need you so
So tell me please, I got to knowDo you mean to make me cry?
Am I just another guy?

Ohuhohuh yeahay yeahay
I love you more than I can say
I love you twice as much tomorrow
Ohuhoh, love you more than I can say

I love you more than I can say
I love you more than I can say
(More than I can say)
I love you twice as much tomorrow
(More than I can say)
I love you twice as much tomorrow
(More than I can say)
I love you more than I can say
(More than I can say)
I love you more than words can
(More than I can say)

　
hmm today is my first day at work at xmh.. i really veri scared and got no sense of secure lei.. cos i like moving to totally new place.. i dunno anyone there lor.. but really that alot of my beloved fren.. call me message me.. just to ask how my day there? and i really miss them.. thanks you ppl.. love your alot.. when there dunno wat to do.. sit at my desk.. someone come up to me with a stationary checklist to check..

i look at the checklist and was like what the heck.. all the stationary are used before.. and guess wat the pen write half way no ink.. and they give me ink to reflief and not a new want.. but everything only got one.. sigh.. after walk arounf the world.. explore the world hmm the office is like so small lor less then 20 staff.. and the warehouse is big got two storey.. hmm aft that went to have lesson.. not really lesson just tat they teaching me quotation.. and it really sound like i doing math and english lesson.. calculation is part of the quotation..

and that lesson and question and answering.. it time for lunch:) went to the small pantry and have lunch there.. eat mee.. and aft that went out of the office to talk to them i love them! talk to them while i drop my tear: ( i miss your people lor.. sad sad.. there is a really new place for me to learn to take care of myself and going home myself too..

sigh.. hmm there is just so sux lah.. the cabinet or drawer is so small i cant put my bag in lor.. and the table are so dusty... and it remind me of huey chin helping me clean my desk.. and no her this time i need to clear it myself lor.. i meeting her tomorrow anyway.. i really miss your people there! life is bored withut your crazy ppl there:) tomorrow going to work again.. hopefully everything will be fine and better! and ya fu yuan and sam is good looking lor.. and ya norman the smoke smell in him is so heavy lor.. cannot take it and someone take coffee too.. and talk to me i hate coffee and smoke smell together lor..

can we be together? NO the answer is OUT.. hahas:) i miss you lots.. finally got to talk to you online today.. one part of your that really brighten up my day by the thing you say.. hahas really brighten up my day on the conversation we had:) thanks for talking to me! still thinking of will i get chance? sigh:(

　
18 JULY FRIDAY!

it was my last day in dbs bank.. was veri sad.. pack up my things in the office in the moring and have lunch with my beloved colleuge in far east square pizza hut.. it fun we have laughter there:) but after that went back to office to continue to pack up and then was like saded and saded when time getting to ending of work.. thanks people for the nice power point presentation.. i cry lor.. was so sad: ( hmm but thanks eveyone! love and miss your to bite:)

19 july sat

hahas: ) wake up early to meet them to go to the bird park.. hahas: ) it fun going there.. sad:( nv get to see the owl.. but i was scared at some of the bird there! but i like those penguin there are very cute lor.. hmm got some feather of he bird.. took so photo too:) aft that went to have last lunch with leslie.. went to jurong point to have kfc for lunch and after that i stil early went to walk walk awhile before we went over to westmall to meet jennifer for movie..

reach westmall at 630.. and guess wat we going to buy that ticket for the movie at 635 lor.. that was like so last min lor.. but thanks God that we manage to get seat that ar back.. went to watch batman.. i find it okay onli.. and jennifer buy me a wallet so nice lor! thanks you:) after that home sweet home.. veri tired alomost the whole day out:)

went online to load all the photo and chat awhile.. and went to bath and sleep.. guess wat i miss him lor.. wanted to see him online but i nv get to see him.. hope he will miss me too.. so long nv see him online liao.. are you busy? are you attach? just wanna let you know that i miss you!

20 july sunday!

hahas: ) wake up at 1030am to watch tv and come online to chat and blog.. since i nv blog for TWO day liao.. ltr meeting jac to have lunch and pass her the trumdrive to help me save something in.. hahas :) tml will be the first day of work.. scared:( must be indenpendent.. and eveything is on your own liao.. feel excited and hope that i will get use to it.. sigh will continue to blog later.. go to full my stomach first..

　
hey one more day in dbs sia.. hmm think that i really veri forture to have a really veri nice colleuge.. thanks josephine for the kinder buneo chocolate.. and suyi for the lunch on tuesday.. and lena for the lunch on wednesday... asd lena lee, phyllis and shellen for the lunch today.. and really thanks evelyn and siri for the gift.. even though it small but it the heart that count.. hmm today have the tea session with the bms collegue.. they ask me to made a speech actually i have alot of thing to say but just too shy.. but thanks jaslyn for the ideal she give so that i cant say say something to all the staff there.. hmm still need to rush some card later.. took alot more photo wih the other people.. and i took alot whole bms photo with them.. sigh.. i really wanna say thanks to everyone lei.. really missed everyone to bits lor.. tomorrow will take last photo with alot of people.. and i my LAST DAY! sad: ( i going to left those nice people.. and dunno will i cry tomorrow ma lei.. sad that i need to hand over my key and everything to them.. and it mean i really my last day there.. hope your people will always remenber my in heart and mind.. you will be in my heart and mind.. hope i still welcomed next time.. looking forward to the pulah ubin outing with them.. tommorrow lunch will be at pizza hut.. sigh it my last day having lunch with all the people lei.. and we all still can hae another lunch time together when i visit your.. but think is hard cos i having 6 month probation and no leave given lor.. hey did you know that i JEALOUS.. i am reallyJESLOUS lor.. why she can?oh ya she can cos just fren wat.. and why it is like this? it is really not what i thought?? hopefully it not what i thought did you ever look at her? i think you sure did lor.. sigh:( should i give up on him? whenever she appear in my mind.. i will hate her.. cos i think she puposly can and talk to you..sigh what happen to you recently? are you attach? really wanna know lor.. but just no courage to ask and him alot of question.. and think tomorrow will have a quick dinner with clara jie jie and doris.. tomorrow need to wake up super early lor.. i miss you alot lei.. amy stop daydreaming it impossible.. GIVE UP! sigh:) will conitnue to blog later.. going to bath and do so other things..:) should i confess to you.. i dun think so! i got no courage to tell you lor.. hahas:) tml will be a fun day ba.. really got to stop blogging.. i got alot of more time to do.. and really think that NO TIME and i also veri lazy lor.. :) but cannot dun do lei :) good night reader! read more tomorrow on what happening for the last day in dbs! smile:)

　
today was a triring day for me.. kind of just reach home.. went to work in dress again.. and will try to wear nice nice to work the nxt few day before i leave the bank! cos we are going to magic box as a company event.. hmm today have my farewell lunch at chinatown point swensen's hahas: ) have clayfish pasta, mushroom soup and ice cream for dessert.. but i never eat the desset cos i dun like ICE CREAM! hahas :) took some photo with my collegue.. hahas : ) counting down to the day to thelast day! 2 more day! hahas ;) will continue to take photo with some other people in the office tomorrow.. aft work when for dinner with jac and shellen and baby... having dinner at meixin.. before we heard down to esplanade to watch the magic box.. and we walk there.. it nice to walk there.. took so nice secncery photo while walking there... hahas:) anyway it a small world after the all.. i saw joseph chean at the magic box performance.. and guess who i saw again... guan ming i miss him.. he went with the family.. saw alot of people husband or wife lor.. and lena lee husband is so charming lor.. and good looking haiya is expected de cos she so pretty too.. and we even show alot of actor and actress at magic box today.. cos it the carity for si chuan de.. and we even took photo with some of them.. after that we went back home by cab.. i went back with shellen and jac.. hahas:) so tired the magic show was okay lor.. find it a bit bored:) but it amazing.. and then i was a bit sleepy during the performance.. i almost fall a sleep lor.. untill now it still veri tired.. i going to change and perpare to go sleep soon.. will continue to blog tml.. thanks people for the effort of thing that your done for me! i love you to bits.. even i dun not really see anything much but still apprecitate the things your done for me! and thank i will like it lor.. onli saw abit when i trying to serech for somthing.. sorry dun mean too :) tommorrow will have lunch with lena phyllis and shellen.. maybe will be going to have japanese food.. after that we will be have bms tea time.. and friday will have to go lunch with the rest of my fren to the soups spoone.. hahas: ) and saturday to the bird park:) and movie night also.. i really________you.. i miss you alot.. was thinking of you when in the magic box lor.. i just dun have the courage to tell you that i miss you! hope you__________. hahas;) and ya.. i havent finish the gift for my colluge yet.. no time! veri veri tired lei.. thanks you people for all the wonderful things you done for me.. miss your people to bits: ) take care.. good night and good morning too!

　
hahas :) today was slack day for me.. cos i kind of ord already.. hmm i went to have lunch with su yi and jill is my first time talking to her.. she a nice lady.. we went to tcc cafe for lunch it was on su yi.. was veri full.. have pasta and seafood platter.. and share the salad with su yi and have iced peach tea.. hmm then after that is normal for everything.. today ceceila the new staff that replaced clara was here.. hmm dinner have change to lunch time tml.. alot of people not turning up cos they have appointment.. actually i have too but then cant ask them to cancel because i got appointment.. sorry jaslyn and sutinah that i have to cancel the lunch time with your people.. hahas : ) but they also plan to have lunch at tcc cafe.. dunno where are we going to have our lunch tml lei.. and tml night will have the magic show.. loking forward to it.. sigh:( and it wednesday tml and guess wat it mean that i going to the bank really soon:( and i still have THREE day more! got to catch up with alot of people for lunch.. thursday will be having lunch with lena and phyllis and shellen.. and sad that friday alot of peoople will not be coming.. it my lastday lei? sigh:( and friday we going to soup spoone with my fren.. hmm thank you people i know wat happen but will pretend i see nothing.. but dun see much thing too.. we going to bird park on sat lei.. have to reshedule all my time again.. so need to change due to some drop up..

1. farewell cum welcomed lunch with acc team- wedneday 16 july
2.magic show at 8pm with bms staff... wednesday-16july
3. lunch with phyllis,lena,shellen(remind) thursday-17july
4. bms tead time at pantry thursady-17 july
5.lunch with fren at the soup spoon-18 july(last day in dbs bank)
6.going bird park 9am to 6pm- 20 july saturday
7.movie with jen and others fren - 20 july saturday.

hahas: ) i will miss all the people there sia.. dunno will i cry or not? sigh sad that i leaving them but was really excited to work in other place.. but it scared also.. hahas have mixed vege rice for dinner.. tml will have dinner with some of my fren before heading down to magic box..

　
hahas: ) today a HAAPY day! hmm today wear the same dress with jacinta to work.. hmm and jac is an angel and i a devil today.. cos she wearing all WHITE and i wearing all BLACK lor.. oh ya i finally finish editing my blogskin lor.. have magie mee for dinnner tonight.. guess wat the maggie mee taste so weird lor.. but just like the noodles hahas;) guess what the dress is too big for me.. i keep pulling the dress.. and it very obseen to pull the dress in the office.. but i still do it lor and contact lens today is veri dry.. but thanksfully there is solution for me to wash it.. hmm i still havent pack my staff.. tml will be tuesday lei.. and it mean that time is flying.. hmm today when to celebrate regine and doris birthday at some korea restaurant here to our work place.. the place is cool.. and nice:) it just that aft eating there we will have smelly shirt:( hmm we bought awfully chocolate cake for them and we even by sunflower for them.. each a stalk.. hmm hahas: ) nice sunflower they have.. oh shit i have to do the farewell give soon:) but just too lazy to do.. and the cake too:) hmm but think will find one day. and my staff still not yet packed.. not even a single things.. tomorrow we will have new staff joining us.. and dunno will the farewell cum welcomed dinner still on? hmm hoping forward to alot of thing sia: ) why? did i made the wrong choice? hmm why? can we change? but will it be so silly to change things again:) nvm forget it.. it just fate lah amy:) today..hahas: ) i looking forward to the day you went out with me alone again;) sigh.. but think no more chance lah.. and can you talk to me more? i trying very hard to talk to you.. but i really scared that i will be a irritation to you lei.. are you attracth? hmm hopefully you are not! i really miss you alots: ) i wanna find someone like you.. sigh:( so excited that i going to a new place to explore new life.. but will SURE miss all my beloved fren de.. hmm 6more days:) sigh.. i just wanna let you know that you're always on my mind.. and guess wat i really think that you're someone special to me: ) i really dun mind wat happening in the furture.. even if you dun have or if you have.. i will still love you.. sigh:) but i trying not to like you! i TRYING very hard ;) hmm i cant do it now but it take time.. hmm hopefully it will be and END soon:) ARGH one sided love is tired and painful lor.. i dun want the feeling.. but what can i do.. NOTHING! the chance no is really very slim... but will try not to like you... if really cannot then will pray for you behide you.. i veri tired today i wanna sleep early.. but i still ahvent see him online yet lei.. how can i sleep without talking to him or seeing him online.. hmm ya planning to watch the red cliff with some of my dbs staff.. but hopefully more ppl will go.. the more the merryier.. sigh i really miss him to bit sia.. but can you dun show me cold shoulder? did you know it very sad that you showing me cold shoulder lei.. the loving for you is hard and is getting harder and harder each day for me to love you.. but i cant do anything just to sit here a do nothing lor:) anyway think i got nothing to blg liao.. will continue to blog tml :) hmm i missed my corn lor.. hmm but i have it in the fridge in the office going to made it tml.. and hor amy is growing fatter and fatter each day.. i got alot of thing to eat in my cabinet lor.. photo chip from lena and cookies from siri.. thanks you your people.. hahas: ) i want to take photo with you! cos i dun have photo with you alone de.. hmm hopefully you will take with me when we can find time! i miss you lots and take good care cos i will not be with you.. hope to be your listening ear lor:) ~miss you lots lots:)~thinking of you every second in my life : )~ love ya always: ).. am i just wanna say sorry for the thing that i have done.. and hope you dun put it to heart and will forgive me lor.. dun wish to see you stress and angry! willing to be your pushing bag.. just wanna you to stay happy always lei: ) willing to change for you to the better.. *WAITING FOR YOU*! : )

　
hahas :) today went to service today guess what today is chs youth sunday! so happy all the youth leading the worship and everythings.. you have done a VERY GOOD job! clap for your! happy :D.. and after that when to meet jac and her sister to go bugis street kfc for lunch and go there to walk walk and look for cadigen.. then just keep on walking till 8 plus.. then head back home.. hahas:) thanks daddy that i havent have my dinner he went out to da bao for me:) so good of him lor.. and come online wish to see him.. but he wasnt online sad:( sigh nvm mybe no fate! waited and waited but still not online.. went to edit my blogskins but the com was super lag and slow.. and guess what all my effort go down the drian.. forget to save and the com end task cos is not running sad lor :( but lazy to edited liao.. will do it tml:) tomorrow wearing the same dress to work with jac.. and sure want to take photo.. anyway i leavig the bank soon.. will sure miss all my super NICE collgue there: ) sad :( hmm but your will always be in my mind and heart:) sigh the next few day will be super busy! alot of things to do.. will be a SUPER busy week for me de and i will start my new job at the new company on 21july2008 so excited lor! hpefully everytime gone well there:) courting down to it! (7 days) 1week more to start of new life and it mean that 1 more week to see and catch up with my SUPER nice colluage.. sad:) time files and think one week is really not enough;) but will come and look for your ppl and meet up when i free.. sad sad:( will i cry? hopefully not! REALLY MISS YOURS PEOPLE TO BITS! love your too! miss me hor:) will miss urs de: ) sigh...

list of things to do
1. pack my stuff in office
2. made card and gift for colluage
3. edited my blog
4.bday lunch with collague(monday)
5.lunch with suyi and farewall cum welcomed dinner with bms team! (tuesday) miss them to bits:)
6.have lunch with jaslyn and sutinah. magicbox at night(wednesday)
7.lunch with lena and physillc (thursday)
8.lunch siri(friday) and sad it my last day of work in dbs! :(

then sat 19 july will be going to bird park with my beloved colluage and for sunday most likely will be staying at home,monday will be a new life things.. looking forward to it! and so excited:) but sun worry ppl your will still in my minds:) smile:) and life go on! july blocked out of your people and please see the given detail below so please booked me in advance!

1.jurong bird park.. yeah! with beloved nice colluage:) 19july-saturday
2.pulah ubin.. also with my beloved group of colluage:) 26july-saturday
3.bings and chings bday! 27 july-tuesday
4. mummy bday! 22 july-tuesday
5.PAY DAY! happy:D- 26 july-saturday!

hmm need to go and sleep already will contince to blog tml and edit if i have time.. i really miss you alot.. and it tired to love you! just wanna let you know that i love and miss you! and take good cares of yourself:)